It’s been hella dead.
I hope Indulgences doesn’t close, or anything. I seriously love it here, I don’t know what I’d do without it.
She came back from vacation and was here looking for me. But I was literally just leaving when she came in…so I told her I’d meet her when I came back, and she said okay, and she wasn’t here. I waited for like, 4 hours. And she never showed. So…fuck that.
I missed your face though.
I’m sorry, Momo. If it means anything, I missed you a whole lot? I think I actually pictured having a conversation with you in my head a few times… Haha, just kidding. You didn’t hear that. Anyways, yeah. Totally missed you and your gorgeousness. Seriously, I felt deprived.
Izzy furrowed her brow, taking a deep breath, her eyes moving from Natalie’s, to her lips, to her eyes again, and back down to their hands, which were still resting in the younger girl’s lap. Her heart was pounding, so loudly that she was almost sure that Natalie could probably hear it without difficulty. This entire situation had thrown her heart for a tailspin. Because up until now, she hadn’t necessarily realized that anything had existed between the two aside from some sort of physical attraction. But here was Natalie, laying it out right before her eyes.
Izzy couldn’t help but question whether or not this had something to do with the fact that she had given Natalie alcohol. After all, the girl had come to Indulgences totally innocent. It was a joke between a few of the staff members as to how long it would take for her to join them in their sinful ways. Guess it didn’t take that long.
Her lips trembled as her eyes met Natalie’s once again at the feeling of the girl’s hand on her face. Again, there was that feeling of comfort, of gentleness, of softness. What did she want? Would it be okay to kiss Natalie? See if there really was something there? Or would that be too along the lines of what Harley had done to her?
But the opportunity was simply lingering right before her face. How could she deny it?
She inched closer, not enough to let their lips touch, and (hopefully) not enough that Natalie would notice. She simply sat quietly, waiting to see what would happen. Natalie was quiet, shy. And Izzy wasn’t entirely sure if the girl had enough courage to close the distance between them. But her curiosity had gotten too be too much to deny.
That feeling at the pit of her stomach – the somersaults, the pterodactyls (instead of butterflies) flapping in your stomach, the intense emotion of having someone you care for, someone you adore, centimeters away was too much. Natalie was sweet, she was kind and caring but she was still a human being – flawed and impulsive. Okay, well, maybe she wasn’t so impulsive all the time, but with alcohol running through her system and the fact that her huge crush was so close to her… well, that drove the impulsiveness. There was probably a minute where Natalie had tried to think things through, to which it sounded much like this:
Nat, don’t do it, you’re going to regret it. But why would you regret it? You already jumped in, might as well make it a dive. No, she’s still hurting over Harley. Harley Shmarley. Think about yourself for once. But I might not be the only person getting hurt in this, what about Izzy? Izzy doesn’t know what she wants and we all know she wants you. Well, you’re kind of bias right there. Nat, just do it.
Much like the whole angel and devil thing on your shoulders, except this was brief, quick and Natalie had never been so confused about something before. She wanted to just press her lips against Izzy’s, pull her close to her body – feel the warmth. Natalie wanted to be the one who was loved and she wanted to show Izzy how good it felt to have someone care about her wholeheartedly for once. But would she? Would Natalie be able to take the leap and fully throw herself out there?
Considering the fact that Natalie had already closed the gap between the two one would assume that Natalie had the courage to take the leap. All she could look at for the minute her head tried to talk her out of it was Izzy’s lips. All she could imagine was Izzy. Izzy. Izzy. Izzy. Izzy. And now her lips were pressed up against Izzy’s, her arms wrapping around Izzy’s and now she felt those pterodactyls beating in her stomach but man it was such a rush. It felt good, it felt great, Natalie had never felt this way before, never taken this chance before. But was this the right thing to do?
Cam’s family is in town, so he’s been off. Harley was here the other night but I don’t know where she is…and everyone else has kinda been…coming in and out and not staying very long.
That’s really… strange. How, uhm, have you and Harley been though?
I understand, Natatat. You doin’ okay? I’m alright, it’s just been…really…really dead here.
Missed ya, though.
Wait, Indulgences has been dead? What happened to Harley and Cam and… everyone?
Momo, long time no see. I missed you, but ugh things with family have been drastic — Long story. I’ve been sick, too. Icky icky. I still feel blah. How are you doing?
I mean. The sparrows are below the belt. Thigh piece goes up to my bum. This might get risque.
I like how this sounds. Big bear cuddles are my favorite ever. Especially underwear cuddles and video games in my big comfy bed.
I dunno this idea kinda has me smitten. Iunno, someone told me I should take more risks.
We could order in — Or better yet, I’ll cook. And then we’ll eat, cuddle in our underwear and you could teach me how to play video games. Although, try not to be too handsy, okay? I might be wearing lace, I like lace.
All my tattoos? Well…we might be getting into some dangerous territory there…
But uh. Y’know. If you insist. I insist.
I’m all up for laying on your lap
with you in just your underwear and watching you play, though.